The sad clip showing the moment a police officer confronted his ex-girlfriend for dumping him before shooting her has been revealed. Yuly Solano was shot by the policeman ex-boyfriend Surveillance videos captured the horrifying moment a Florida sheriff’s deputy confronted his ex-girlfriend and shot her with a service pistol before committing suicide, Daily News has reported. The sad incident took place two weeks after they broke up. It was gathered that Deputy Michael DeMarco waited in his patrol car outside a Boynton Beach condominium complex on Oct. 12 to confront Yuly Solano, according to police documents cited by the Palm Beach Post before confronting the ex-girlfriend and shot her. In the shocking video footage released by Boynton Beach police on Friday, DeMarco can be seen climbing out of the car before the two walk side by side out of the frame. When they reappear, Solano can be seen backing away and holding her hand to her face in apparent fear while DeMarco raises the gun a...
Eternal suffering…this is what my life is destined for. Somehow I’ve known this all 34 years of my life, but I never wanted to accept it until now. I’ve worked hard to earn a “Good life” but none of it means anything if you have no one who cares to share it with you.
I recently watched the movie “The Shack” hoping it may restore my faith in God, but the message in the movie didn’t hit the mark for me. The premise being God can’t prevent evil from happening, and forgiveness is the only way to find inner peace, but I can’t forgive everyone that has ignored my needs and indirectly stabbed me in the back and in the heart. I’ve never truly felt God’s presence in my life. As much as I’ve wanted to in the past, as much as I’ve tried to be a good Christian…I continued to always be isolated and alone. For years I’ve been a hero to some and a Saint to others, yet in all that I’ve done to help others along, they take what they want from me and let the door hit me on the way out. I was naive to believe good things come to those who wait, but I’m still waiting and I am crushed by the continuous disappointment each day brings. Everyone in my life has used me until they don’t need or want me anymore. I’m just a means to their end and nothing more.
Life is just a game people play to manipulate each other for personal gain. I have nothing left in my heart to give. My soul is empty and my body is numb. Pain is all I feel and it never goes away.
I almost committed suicide a year and a half ago. Only to go through pointless treatments and therapies in a sheltered environment so people who treated me could feel good about “helping”. But it doesn’t help in the real world. There is no way to cope with eternal suffering and loneliness.
If God existed, he would not be so cruel to make his children suffer for an entire lifetime, forbidding us to kill ourselves only to continue our agony without end. This is cruelty at its worst, being forced to live a life of suffering to be sent to Hell for eternity to continue to suffer. This life is my Hell. I can’t imagine a pain that feels worse than this. I would’ve rather feel nothing at all.
The worst falsehood God teaches is hope. There is no hope for me as I hope and anticipate good things to come, the more I am disappointed by the actual events that unfold. No one truly cares, they all just want to take everything from me and for me to go away and disappear. I am just a burden to all who think they know me and that is all I’ll ever be.
The last thing I ever want to do is commit some atrocity before I die. I wouldn’t do it now, but if I continue to suffer in this life, I fear I may reach a point where I feel everyone and everything deserves to suffer as I do, and I may end up killing people as a result. Ive thought about this a lot since the Las Vegas shooting and i believe this to be the shooters motive. He was old, lonely, and had nothing to show for his life. He probably suffered as we do and nobody even knew it. Better to take my life now and end my suffering and prevent any chance of becoming like him.
Time for my appointment with therapist. Should I tell the truth and let them put me through more useless treatment? Or continue to lie like everyone else does just to avoid the white walls and straight jacket treatments. So sad that these are the only choices I can make over my meaningless life to continue my path of eternal suffering.
Sorry for the rant. So much bottles up in such a short period of time.
I recently watched the movie “The Shack” hoping it may restore my faith in God, but the message in the movie didn’t hit the mark for me. The premise being God can’t prevent evil from happening, and forgiveness is the only way to find inner peace, but I can’t forgive everyone that has ignored my needs and indirectly stabbed me in the back and in the heart. I’ve never truly felt God’s presence in my life. As much as I’ve wanted to in the past, as much as I’ve tried to be a good Christian…I continued to always be isolated and alone. For years I’ve been a hero to some and a Saint to others, yet in all that I’ve done to help others along, they take what they want from me and let the door hit me on the way out. I was naive to believe good things come to those who wait, but I’m still waiting and I am crushed by the continuous disappointment each day brings. Everyone in my life has used me until they don’t need or want me anymore. I’m just a means to their end and nothing more.
Life is just a game people play to manipulate each other for personal gain. I have nothing left in my heart to give. My soul is empty and my body is numb. Pain is all I feel and it never goes away.
I almost committed suicide a year and a half ago. Only to go through pointless treatments and therapies in a sheltered environment so people who treated me could feel good about “helping”. But it doesn’t help in the real world. There is no way to cope with eternal suffering and loneliness.
If God existed, he would not be so cruel to make his children suffer for an entire lifetime, forbidding us to kill ourselves only to continue our agony without end. This is cruelty at its worst, being forced to live a life of suffering to be sent to Hell for eternity to continue to suffer. This life is my Hell. I can’t imagine a pain that feels worse than this. I would’ve rather feel nothing at all.
The worst falsehood God teaches is hope. There is no hope for me as I hope and anticipate good things to come, the more I am disappointed by the actual events that unfold. No one truly cares, they all just want to take everything from me and for me to go away and disappear. I am just a burden to all who think they know me and that is all I’ll ever be.
The last thing I ever want to do is commit some atrocity before I die. I wouldn’t do it now, but if I continue to suffer in this life, I fear I may reach a point where I feel everyone and everything deserves to suffer as I do, and I may end up killing people as a result. Ive thought about this a lot since the Las Vegas shooting and i believe this to be the shooters motive. He was old, lonely, and had nothing to show for his life. He probably suffered as we do and nobody even knew it. Better to take my life now and end my suffering and prevent any chance of becoming like him.
Time for my appointment with therapist. Should I tell the truth and let them put me through more useless treatment? Or continue to lie like everyone else does just to avoid the white walls and straight jacket treatments. So sad that these are the only choices I can make over my meaningless life to continue my path of eternal suffering.
Sorry for the rant. So much bottles up in such a short period of time.
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